it's 11:11 again

and honestly, it's been 11:11 more times in my life than than I can count.
I am sure you have a 'time' that you seem to see all the time on the clock. for me, it's 1111. (and coming in second? 10:13) the only time, mind you when all four digits on a clock are all the same.

anyway. I can't really figure it out. Not that I have to. Maybe the number was purposely placed in my karmic orbit for the soul purpose of making me aware of something. a way to remind me of things; a subconscious conversation starter with my conscious state of being. For example, Marty and I are both 11's on a numerology point of view.
* Numerology is any of many systems, traditions or beliefs in a mystical or esoteric relationship between numbers and physical objects or living things. as described in wikkipedia.
....
here, I'll break it down. my birthday is 12/15/1982. to get my life path number, I add: 12+15= 27+1982= 2009.
2+0+0+9= 11
1+1=2, so my life number is 11/2
(11 and 22 are considered the master numbers)
Marty's birthday is 12/08/1980, thus bringing his life number to 11/2
I also find it interesting that the year I discovered that marty and I are both 11 is 2009. the same number you get one step before my master number (12+15= 27+1982= 2009) Also, the year he graduated was his:
12+8=20+1980=1999

2009 seems to be in interesting year for me. I dare say the best year of my life so far!!!

this excerpt comes from here: The Life Path 2 suggests that you entered this plane with a spiritual quality in your makeup allowing you to be one of the peacemakers in society. Your strengths come from an ability to listen and absorb. You are a fixer, a mediator, and a very diplomatic type of person using persuasive skills rather than forcefulness to make your way in the world. When you embrace and exhibit the strenghth of your spiritual side, you are intuitive, avant-garde, idealistic, and visionary. These extremes make you interesting with much to offer society. You have the potential to be a deep-thinker, and no doubt interested in understanding many of life's mysteries and more intriguing facets.

If you are living with the positive attributes of the number 2 Life Path, you are apt to have the most delicate ability to be balanced and fair. You clearly see the full spectrum of viewpoints in any argument or situation, and because of this, people may seek you out to be a mediator. In this role you are able to settle disputes with the most unbiased flair. There is sincere concern for others; you think the best of people, and want the best for them. You are honest and open in thought, word and deed. You excel in any form of group activity where your expertise in handling and blending people can be used effectively. Manners and tact mark your way with others, and you are not one to dominate a group or situation. You are the master of compromise and of maintaining harmony in your environment. As the ultimate team member, you never demand praise or recognition.

In many ways, you are a creature of habit and routine, and you like your path and pattern well worn and familiar. Your ability to analyze and render accurate judgments is a wonderful natural trait you bring to the business world. You strive for complete accuracy and even perfection in your work. Perhaps you are not a leader, but you are a visionary and a very talented idea person.

On the negative side of the 2, nervous energy is a trait often observed in the 2. Because of this, you may be seen as an extremist who is sometimes the zealot in expressing likes and dislikes. Nervous tension can bring the normally easygoing 2 into a state of emotional outrage, which to those around you, may seem so out of character. Indeed, the 2 can sometimes become oversensitive. In some instances, the strength of the 2 can also become its weakness. You may find it hard to decide what to do at times. Twos often struggle against indecisiveness. Making decisions and getting your life in gear, so to speak, may be a challenge. There is a tendency for the many 2s to harbor feelings of uneasiness, and dissatisfaction with accomplishments and personal progress in life. The biggest obstacle and difficulty you may face is that of passivity and a state of apathy and lethargy. The negative 2 can be very pessimistic. When this sets in to any degree, you are able to accomplishes very little. If living on the negative side of the 2, you may lack common sense, and you are quite often unable to distinguish between fantasy and reality.

Even the more positive individuals with the 2 Life Path will prefer a more amiable and less competitive environment, often shunning the business world. You can best serve society in endeavors utilizing your skills of counseling and guidance. Much of your idealism is people oriented and quite humanitarian in nature. You expect a great deal of yourself.


so! that describes both marty and I to a very large capital T. (where does that saying come from, anyway? Anyone know??)

so, back to the origianal point,I see 11 all the time! :)
(for the few of you I know may read this, I send you a facebook message with your number!) and here's a good page you can read about yourself!!

that's all for now folks :) just some food for thought...
oh!!!!!!!!!!
did I mention 4 days!? wait...::checking time::....
THREE DAYS!!!
(((top image from here)))

exclamation point(s)

!!!!!!!!!!!
so excited!!!

I am going on a fun fun FUN roadtrip with one of my dearest friends

C H R I S T I N A (!!!!!)

yep, gonna be a fricken blast!
(can you imagine? a suuuuper long girls night/day/week!
FINALLY!!!!)

I bought my ticket today (one way!) to minneapolis for 03MAY 2009.
I leave El Paso at 1215pm and have about an hour in Denver where I'll anxiously await my connecting -and final- flight back into minneapolis! Where, at exactly

Christina's husband, Tony is flying out on or around that day, he's flying into el paso :) ...wonder if we'll cross paths!!

So, I'll help her direct the movers. Supervise, as she put it. then we'll do a major clean job on the apartment, hang out a little teeny bit and then hit the road, jack. well, cosmo and reggie, to be exact. yes... her two cats are going along. and mind you this. They will be drugged. :) we all will, I guess, in a way!!

so that's exciting!

on another topic, I really like breathing reaaaaally deep. it's a natural high. and I love those!! stretching does wonders as well.

ok, gonna go have a contest with christina

An actual letter to:

Dear Mr. McKnight,
For my first time, I attended the El Paso Psychic fair on Sunday. I knew immediately I wanted to speak with you. Sadly, I hadn't the time for the wait. I Regardless, I would love to speak with you some time in the relative future. A close friend of mine is also extremely interested. We were wondering if you'd be open to meeting with the two of us?
Be well,
Paige Gunderson

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It was too bad, too! I found out soon thereafter that Marty had done some research on the psychics that would be attending the fair, and this man, Robert V. McKnight, was kind of the head hauncho psychic. I later found out that he predicted 9/11. I guess he had written something that the major news channels were ranting about on 9/12...He's been a practicing clairvoyant for the last 40 (!! wowza!) years. That's waaay longer than I've even been a thought! Psycho Graphology, dreams, aura, tarot, medium, past lives, numerology (which I think is very interesting), psychic lifeline, debts to destiny and proscopy (no idea)are all things he knows and uses well.

Anyway, I had to be to work that day, we've got big deadlines on wednesday, so I couldn't wait for the 10 people that were ahead of me at 15-20 minutes a shot. I'd really rather not have met with him there, anyway. I'd like to be in a more private environment where I can focus. I am really excited to see what comes of all of this.

I met with Yani. I think that's how you spell her name. It was a quick last minute decision...work. sigh. I felt no karmic or psychic connection with her, but no negative push either. She told me lots of very interesting things. I had no specific quesitons so I asked about relationship, and career. Standard. I was really kind of just testing the water. This was my first time, afterall. She had cards, she read my energy, she was a clairvoyant. I have a blue energy around me, its deep and it includes perfectionism. It's the strongest all star signs, the Female Sagittarius. I also radiate light, which draws all things to me. Both in this world and the next dimension. Sometimes things trapped will try to contact me through different mediums. The one that seems to work the best with me is dreams. (of which I have always known, and been slightly afraid)
This psychic ability/gift was passed down from my Mother's side. I concur with this bit of information as I know full well that my mother is also in tune with this ability. Call it God, call it the holy spirit, call it an angel, call it a grandmother or a spirit- It's there and it's something.
I also have a much stronger karmic connection with my father. I embrace family. She knew that I was here with family, of which his mother was a huge part. She knew I'd been going to school once, and was now planning on returning back to school right after the move we'd be taking in less than 6 months. She said it had something to do with hair design (very werid. hello going to Carsten's Aveda Institue) She also told me that my relationship was strong and would take the next level of commitment in about 6 months.
She asked me if I was being careful about getting pregnant....
I am not sure what to think of that bombshell yet. Does this mean now? Like I am prime baby making age? Or does that mean in the future...like something could be wrong? I think for now, I will just be real careful not to get knocked up right now. We have a lot in store for us... We don't want to include children- right now. As soon as we can support a family and have had our young together time, we'll talk about trying :)
She told me that Marty would have a lot more opportunity there and to make sure he gets his foot in as many doors as possible.
I know she told me a lot of things, but these seemed to be in the important ones.
I am interested in seeing what sorts of things Mr. McKnight will have for me. I have a very important question I'd like to ask him. One that I was a bit hesitant to ask on sunday. Again, I'd prefer a more intimate setting.
Ideally, I'd love to have a peaceful room with Robert.

So, that's interesting.
I'll have to keep an open mind as they say :)Fun Fact! the pinneal gland is often larger in people who are more psychic...

time to love on my man now.

things that make me happy*

*marty.

I cannot emphasize enough how very lucky I am to have this man. I can go on and on... talk about how he's perfect this and wonderful that....
but *it's the little things about him that make me realize it.
Things that sometimes could seem negative, but because we're both grown ups, make us stronger.

Sometimes I could just claw him, but when I chill out for 3 seconds, I remember that I do the very same thing in a different situation. At times, I remember the old saying opposites attract. But to be perfectly honest, I could never EVER marry someone that was my complete opposite! And even more honest, someone has to be very much like me in order to (put up with?) understand me.

Down here, all we really do is wake up, eat, (I usually cook some glamorous meal...2-3 times a day)work throughout the day, watch soprano's beginning at about 11 pm, watch 1-2 episodes, wake up...Marty is much better at entertaining himself on the internet, bless him. I can only check facebook, my gmail, and top news stories of the day -so much. My www journalism comes in the evening - about 10 or 11... and that's only when I decide to focus enough to *sit down and gather some thoughts.

But I like it. It's another thing that makes me happy :)

But back to *marty.
We think the same about a lot of things. our political views are very much the same, which I enjoy. Thoughts on where to live and where to marry, our sometimes rude thoughts on obesity in america, *which climate is clearly superior, all of these things we share, among others, of course! We are both similar in attitude and presence. We both enjoy to entertain- let us throw parties... they'd be amazing. (if only we could actually get paid to do this!!)

I like that I can go without showering for 2 days and he can lovingly make fun of me about it. And provided I'm not feeling moody that day, I can take it. :) The fact that he doesn't get irritated with my random spouts of moodiness...that says a lot, I think :)

Anyway. it's nice to *write and feel warm inside.

you should try this... it seems to be helping my way of life!

...time to go *shower :)

bloggity, bloggity, blog

So this blog thing has me thinking. Really. What I mean to say is that throughout the day, I occasionally have paige time, inward thinking, quiet time. Whatever the name, I do. And I think about things I'd like to expand on... think about. *blog about.


But I get so many thoughts that I can't decide which I like better!
That's an interesting thought :)

I recently found out that the case I've been working on is going REALLY well. And that's a really satisfying feeling. Knowing that the hours upon hours of work Marty and I have been doing is actually working. And we're about to see a very big win. Which will help our life so many ways. I'll be able to go to school- finally. ugh. I have been wanting to go to this particular thing for 9 years or so now. And the work that T's been doing will be paying off. 3 long years for him. lots invested. T is a really wonderful man and I am so blessed to have him in my life. I have been so greatly blessed with wonderful family. So I really did get the whole package; amazing marty, happy life, great new family. smile.

Ha, bubbles over here.... doing that- start with one thought, morph into the next without really realizing it- thing...

So, that being said, it's nice to know that our work here in ep is basically finished. It was great, but we knew it would be a very temporary thing. I am quite excited to get our own place, in our own little spot in the world... Open the next chapter. But I remember to be content with how things are now, too... this is sadly, the end of one chapter: essentially rent free, no real schedule, lots of chill time, tons of time to cook- which I love :)

adios. Time to enjoy...

In keeping up with things

I think I'll share a fun thing to do when I'm having *paige time.

It's nice to reminisce. But always in the most positive aspect of it all. Occasionally I will sit outside, enjoy the crisp air and take out my cell phone. I don't call anyone- just slowly look through the list of memories I have with the people with whom I've surrounded myself.
And occasionally delete the names I no longer need.
It's a nice way to release some endorphins.
Running through my list often takes me to other times which lead me to new memories. This time with a different name in my phone book.
It's time traveling, in a way. Or, maybe a new take on the photo album thing; you always end up losing a bunch of time, but gaining a bunch of fun things to think about.

And these days, I really do have a lot of time on my hands. It's nice, but admittedly, difficult to adjust to. In fact, I'm not certain that I've ever really had a good grasp on that fascinating mind feat. I know, it sounds dramatic. But really. I've always really had a difficult time doing "nothing." I forget how much fun I can have with myself. hehe. Crafting, as Marty calls it; making jewelry, making cards! Painting, taking things apart, putting them together with others I've taken apart... makes for a lovely evening. I really do love all of my paige activities, but somehow I always manage to forget how happy I am doing those things!

So, this memory phone (new take on memory foam) game really helps to me chill. Remember the people I love. Think about things that are important to me. It's nice.

This is a good big mind activity... at least in my big balloon head ...or pretty little head, as the person who I love the most says :)

*Now, S T R E T C H!

...feels amazing, right!?


(Photo: Steph Hon)

Changes

I have decided to change this a bit; from here on out, I will be writing letters to myself.
>paige- in my most honest opinion, and with a truly sincere heart, I believe you need to stop trying to fix everything. I know that's not what you're trying to do. But you need to sit back and relax. Enjoy. Small things are small things. Just because there's a bump in the road, doesn't mean that something is horribly wrong. stop assuming that. It's ok!!! and in the end, things will happen as they'll happen. Remember to think of the big mind- fill that big mind with tranquility and peace. If you stumble upon something, gather your composure and learn from that mistake. learn from that argument, learn from that dissappoinment. Then next time, you'll be more prepared. Don't over analyze everything. chill.... :)
Here is an excerpt from an article in tricycle...
"...we are dysfunctional. The worst part about it is that since we’ve never been completely functional, we don’t realize how dysfunctional we really are. If we were once completely functional, completely integrated, completely liberated and free, then we would think, “Oh my God, I used to be free, now I’m stuck, I used to be completely functional, now I’m dysfunctional....But if we don’t have that experience, we never realize that there’s a better, a more optimal way to function.”
So, stop being dysfunctional- think about that for a while, then write me back later :)